the green & the yellow

 I didnt brush my teeth today, 

I'm still relishing in the leftover taste of my dreams 

Sometimes, it's hard for me to distinguish my memories between real material happenings and dream reality 

Moon River, 

nightscape, wrap around me, 

I feel most alive in darkness when I can hear the waters run rapid inside 

And because the night holds me in the way I used to like being held by what saved me before I knew what love really was 

But like dreams, I forgot about the conditions they held 

Upon return, unsatisfied

What do i with the disappointment of love dripping through my fingers like a melted dream my brain tried to preserve for what I thought would be a lifetime 

I stayed up all night but

The dream ended

The water melted,

And The fish returned back to the sky and i don't know what is left

 

Moon River, 

Carry me along the sky, into daylight 

tugged at the seams by stars, by the sun sometimes.

the color green in the sun light, stimulated

I am reborn with the power to see 

Not with my eyes 

But with what is left to bear in my spine 

And the past of knowledge growing roots deep on my shoulders 

Knowledge preceding the silly matters of the anatomical heart

escaping my shell, subconscious holding me hostage,

the sunlight reminds me I am glitter, glimmer, glistening every part of me that I thought deserved to hide, 

I’ve found yellow 

“Yellow grass, yellow sand

Yellow stars, yellow land

Yellow past, yellow man

You got a yellow heart

Sometimes, I need a message, sometimes, I need a rope

Yellow lines that go for miles and miles

We do them all, then follow in denial

For our love is vile

Yellow flows like the Nile...” (yllw by Bakar) 

Sometimes i need a message, 

sometimes i need a rope

A river of compassion flows infinity 

But 

What is left when i have died many deaths to dreams promising abundance

What is a promise if not the possibility of its demise 

What is a rope if my river is shallow 

What is the message if i have drowned 

Lover, 

I am still grieving all the love I minimized with you, 

I prayed but even all the stars in the sky couldn't lead me back to where you needed me the most

You nor i, made perfect 

Without fault we have stayed true to what came natural to us 

Anger like berries packing punches deep within my throat, 

I have forgiven you 

I have digested the fruit of my faults  

U should forgive me 

Or don’t 

I remember,

not to recall the euphoria abyss the pain 

But to free myself of what i thought reality was 

To what i thought love was

Because i’ve lost you 

And I’ve lost those nights

But,

What i thought i’d lost, melted my frozen heart 

Beating just in time 

Sunrise just in time

offerings for the stars and the sky

To bear fruit upon the future 

And compassion for the present 

A compost for the breeding grounds of dreams

 

Because what is dreamt, is remembered

Because what is remembered will never be forgotten 

But stored within the green, within the yellow 

For wisdom to come and strongarm the dreams to reflect reality  

Come moon river, hold the hands of the dreamers  ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆